Sanctuary

[Pathfinder]

 sigh...

[Oath Keeper]

*tilted head*

.......


*poke*

[Fatal Error]

Yes, but see, now that you posted, people are interested in whats wrong which would lead to them asking the question whats wrong and expecting an answer...

[Pathfinder]

well I feel like every 6months or so I post a threat about the suck that is life. I just thought peoples would fill in the blank with the same old song and dance.

1). I'm really tired of moving all the time; its stressful to us and to my cats and other animals (at least the goldfish dont give a shit).
2). I'm tired of having to go to the doctors a lot... yes I know it comes with the whole being trans thing but ffs... Its enough I give myself a shot every two weeks without having to get blood draws every few months... I can't wait until blood draws are just yearly.
3). I'm still really tired all the time.
4). <insert>

[Firestorm]

PF, as someone who has moved over fifty times in her life time, I can understand how moving frustrates you. A person doesn't want to move all of the time, but sometimes moving is a necessary measure to find a better place. Sometimes, we may choose the wrong place, but there is always the, what is the lesser evil here? Should I continue to be harassed by my neighbors, or should I move into an area where I must walk five blocks to the store?

Going to the doctors all of the time is a pain. But at least you are able to do that to get what you need. Some people cannot go to the doctor's at all, nor can they afford their medication when they are jobless and have no income and no other source of help.

If you are tired all of the time, try eating more fruit, such as an apple or banana. I found out when I am really tired and sluggish, two bananas energizes me. So does plenty of sunshine.

Don't be fooled into thinking you cannot help yourself, because you can. But only you can make the decision.

And yes, I know it's hard, but getting through the hard part and surviving it is what makes you stronger, right?

[Pathfinder]

There are times when I work myself almost to death to support pammy and she literally does nothing but play on the computer; when I worked at panera she spent the whole time play WoW on the free wifi, when I work on costumes for us she spent the time on facebook while I do all the work. Its just aggravating some times; yeah I know she looks for work but its frustrating when I go a few months without a job her parents look at me like I'm lazy. When I worked at Panera before (and I'm going back to work there soon) I would give her money for my cell but it would end up getting spent at the mall or on her lunch or some ICP shirt and that just reflects back onto me because I didn't give her mom the money for my cell. Or money for my laptop... its just so frustrating because we burn through money so fast... Yah I know I can spend it just as fast as she can but when you earn the money its harder to spend it. I feel like if she worked even just a little bit for the money she would be more hesitant about going nuts with it.

[Firestorm]

This is something you need to talk to her about. Find out why, and let her know it's tiresome. Unfortunately, every relationship is going to have trouble, but that doesn't mean you can't work something out.

Don't pay any attention to what other people think. You already know you're hard worker, and that's rewarding itself. Talk to Pam and go from there.

[Celsi Wish]

Pathfinder, do you know photoshop well? If you do, my work is hiring and I could help you get in. They're looking for referrals over hiring externally, so just let me know. It's a good, fun job and the pay is amazing. And it's full time.


I know your pain so well, and this job really helped me bring myself back to life.

[Firestorm]

Celsi,

Do you know if your job is looking for a web designer or something of the sort? I just thought I asked, despite the fact I can't travel out of my area in OH. ><;

[Celsi Wish]

Unfortunately no, only Imagers and I believe photographers right now. I work for Smartbargains and Ruelala.com, so they already have a big in-house team.

I'm sorries.

[Pathfinder]

No I got rehired at panera but I don't know anything about photoshop. I'm frustrated right now because Pam thought she had a job, they told her she was coming in on Tuesday, meanwhile we got an apartment closer to my work so I could walk to work on days she worked, then she gets there and they drop the bomb that its an observation day. F*ck. So now I have to find a way to make bare minimum 1200dollars a month to cover rent, food and electric. fml right now seriously. They straight up said she'd start such and such a day and then she got there and they said "ok we will call you some time next week" and now we find out that it was a trial and she's not guaranteed to get the job. Come on now, wtf?

[Firestorm]

.... Why the hell are they messing with you guys? If they tell you to come in on a specific day, it should be that. I say make a formal complaint to the head supervisors, you know those important people who always come in like once a month and get treated like royalty? Those guys.

And $1200.00 a month? The only way you'd make that amount easily is by doing telemarketing, and that's no easy job for some people. Any more, they make it harder and harder don't they? : /

Hopefully something will make things right..

[Pathfinder]

well assuming Pam and I each had a job that was 9-10dollars per hour we'd only each need to average 20-25hours per week to each bring home 600dollars and average out each half of our rent and other bills. The math works out pretty much but midsummer/end of summer we're getting a room mate.

[Firestorm]

: / Whatever works, right?I tend not to have room-mates if I can help it, not unless I know the person very well. And even then, there's still a lack of comfort there, particularly if it's your first time living together.

However, a room-mate may be your best choice if nothing else works.

[Pathfinder]

coming from a large family I would like a room mate either way since it is a two bedroom. Also our rent is technically only 1000 something but the 200 is average for other bills. Heat and hot water are included.